THR coming up

For various reasons it's been a fairly involved few months but now life is back to anhedonia, insufficient sleep, and excess alcohol. But in 5 days that all changes again as i'm finally going under the knife for a total hip replacement on my left leg.

I'm resigned to it but still anxious as fuck and well just super-pissed off that I need to have it done all from a nothing accident 3.5 years ago. It'll be a couple of months before I can even think of getting on a bicycle again which is somewhat limiting as that is my main mode of transport apart from walking.

By pretty much pure chance a niece wants to move to Adelaide so is coming to stay with me for a bit - she can help with the basic day to day stuff that I might not be able to do for a few weeks. There aren't any real insights on how long it might take to recover enough to get around, cook, and clean so I will just have to see how it pans out for me.

I didn't drink for July (moral support for a friend at the time) and lost a bit of weight and spent a bit more effort on getting as fit and strong as possible before the operation so physically i'm about as prepared as i'm likely to be.

Mentally and emotionally i'm a bit of a wreck but oh well, one day at a time.